This presentation from an upcoming paper shares findings from an 'autoethnography of powerlessness,' drawing from my disempowering experience of being a heavily moderated social media user. Focusing on the moderation of my pole dance instructor, activist and blogger account @bloggeronpole taking place from February to October 2021, I reflect on social media's de-platforming of nudity and sexuality as lived through the deletions of my profiles on Instagram (July 2021) and TikTok (February, April and May 2021). With little to no information from platforms about the details of their moderation, qualitative, ethnographic and autoethnographic explorations of platform governance is all users currently have to fight and understand puritan, patriarchal censorship of nudity and sexuality. I contextualise my experiences within broader platform governance, Internet law and sociological research to recommend different options for better, more equal and community focused moderation.